The most important thing to me in my life right now is my senior year and my unborn child. I chose my senior year because that will forever follow me and I will always look back on these 4 years of my life, not only have I learned and developed a lot throughout these 4 years I have also had some of the best times of my life. I met the most amazing people that I know won't be with me forever but their memories will and the ones who will be by my side even out of high school I thank for helping me through my struggles.
As for my unborn child now that I have found out that I am having a boy and not a girl I am kind of nervous first of all I don't know things that I am suppose to about a boy that I would know about a girl. Now I am about to have a son and I have to hope I know how to deal with his life changes and answer questions that he may ask me. I know I have a boyfriend or baby daddy for that reason, but I still look at everything independently I want to be prepared for it if it was to happen that I was on my own.
I knew it was real that I was having a baby but after finding out what I was having made everything more real.
I am so happy to actually say his name or to say my son it brings tears to my eyes to know that I was blessed enough to take on such a life changing situation, to actually know that I am lucky enough to hold a child of my own making. Not only am I not done being a big baby but now I have to be a mommy, looking at my mom and seeing how strong she has to be for her children I pray that I can do it as well as she does.
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